I've got that feeling in my belly. You know the one. The one that admits I might just crack up at any moment.
Adrenaline has been keeping me going so far and it's just about warn thin.
Usually I react by cutting myself off, retreating to my bed and hand washing. I am determined, DETERMINED I SAY, not that let that happen.
I'm in a stronger place than I've been for a long while and I'm sure that if ever there was a time to reject my natural instincts it is now.
I'm tired and I'm scared. It's hard to keep going.
When I feel like the germs are little monsters coming to get me, I will read a book. Or watch the X Factor. I won't wash my hands.
I am uneasy. I hope I feel better soon.
Send me nice pictures and funny videos.