Uneasy.

I've got that feeling in my belly. You know the one. The one that admits I might just crack up at any moment.

Adrenaline has been keeping me going so far and it's just about warn thin. 

Usually I react by cutting myself off, retreating to my bed and hand washing. I am determined, DETERMINED I SAY, not that let that happen. 

I'm in a stronger place than I've been for a long while and I'm sure that if ever there was a time to reject my natural instincts it is now. 

I'm tired and I'm scared. It's hard to keep going. 

When I feel like the germs are little monsters coming to get me, I will read a book. Or watch the X Factor. I won't wash my hands. 

I am uneasy. I hope I feel better soon. 

Send me nice pictures and funny videos.