Thursday, 5 May 2011
A wee boost
(Those pictures hold no relevance to the below. I just find sunsets wonderfully romantic.)
I'm being a rubbish blogger at the moment and I'd like to take this moment to pass on my deepest apologies. I'm also being a rubbish reader. Every night I go to bed with every intention of reading a chapter of my book, only to fail miserably as slumber takes over. That's why I haven't written a book review in a while. Book reviews are less easy when the book has yet to be read. Just FYI.
I'll tell you what else I'm rubbish at. A Levels.
I haven't washed my hair today either.
But all these things are in the pipe line to be rectified. I'm writing a timetable (or am going to write a timetable) of my life for the next month. So as I know exactly when I am working at the bookshop, working on my school work, reading, watching the telly box, and sleeping. I think this will make me an all round better person.
In other news; I'm feeling GREAT. Life seems to be treating me pretty well, with a new pink driving license, a shiny new job, and a sense of some kind of future prospects for the first time in a long time. I had a super therapy session yesterday. That's sort of an odd sentence but true nonetheless. I have weekly therapy to deal with the issues and stuff. Mostly I sit and reel off all the 'good' and 'bad' things in my life at that present time, usually with a massive smile on my face because I'm not very good at being 'vulnerable'. I don't know why I put that in quotation marks. I suppose the word vulnerable makes you a little vulnerable doesn't it?
Yesterday we talked about good things. We talked about the future, what my strengths are and the things I love. It was uplifting. And my therapist made me feel like I could do anything as long as I wanted it enough.
So that's the new plan. I'm going to work for the things that I want. And I'm going to love them when I get them. I'm thinking about the future a lot. For me, and a lot of other people my age this is a time of transition. And it's a time to make decisions. I feel less anxious about making bad ones and am trying to live in both the here and the later. Taking things as they come but also trusting that they will.
I'm tired now and I've got to work in the morning so I'm going to bid you farewell. Good night.